Social Network-less!

I've been wanting to write on this topic for forever. Now the moment has finally come and I can proudly say - I don't belong to any social networks!

It's true. Last week I deactivated my Facebook account and today I deleted my Twitter. It feels good. Freeing! I'm sure it will take some adjustment, but I'm glad I did it. Maybe now I'll read more, write more, and just take time to stop and smell the roses more often so to speak! Instead of updating my Facebook I can use that time to text an old friend...spend more time in the REAL world with REAL people. I figure anyone who cares what I'm doing and vice versa I'll know what they're up to already without reading about it on the internet.

Something happened today with a friend that pushed me to the edge. A fight started over something that involved Twitter and I thought wow, really? It's not worth it. When I think back to all the drama with my past relationship and Facebook I realize it wasn't worth it then either. Life is dramatic enough already without adding drama to the mix from social networks.

Why are people so obsessed with social networks? Why do we (yes, me too sometimes though it pains me to admit it) feel the need to write online about ordinary events such as doing laundry or cleaning? Does anyone really care that you're doing laundry? Probably not. Or to declare true love or hey, even true hate about a significant other. Wouldn't it be better just to tell that person privately how you feel? Or the complainer, another of my "favorites" - someone who posts again and again how much their life sucks. Why do people do this? I guess people just want to feel validated at the end of the day? And I get that, I do. But I just feel over it now. I feel strangely empowered. I feel like my life is private now. Of course obviously I'm writing about my life on here, but that feels different somehow. I write this for myself because I like to write and because it makes me feel better and clears my head. It's not written to impress or make anyone feel sorry for me. It's truly just to please myself. And no one has to read it if they don't want to. I'm not forcing my thoughts onto 230 something people's Facebook timelines. If someone happens to read this and likes something I have to say, then hey that's great. But if no one ever reads the things I write here then that feels just fine too.

We'll see how it goes. Life has been hard lately for a variety of reasons. Maybe I'm entering a time period of deep personal reflection now (haha - that sounds cheesy huh?). Life does not last forever. DUH, right?? But that's something I've only truly come to grasp the meaning of lately. When I was a teenager or even early 20's it seemed life would go on forever. I had all the time in the world to make all my dreams come true. Now I realize that I don't. It's a tough expectation to think that each day can live up to it's potential and be wonderful. It's funny how things do change and yet most days are the same. Get up, go to work, come home, go to bed. I'm trying to be happy with each day. It's tough. Life is tough even with all the blessings I'm surrounded by, sometimes it's just tough.

My biggest fear in this life is to die with regrets. I'll just put that deep thought out there for you...think about it. Okay. I want to be happy and to make the most I can out of each and every day even when bad things are happening around me. And one thing I know for sure - when I do reach the end of this life whether tomorrow or in 50 years I will absolutely NOT look back and wish I had Facebook or Tweeted more!

Ciao social networks! I don't need you anymore!